As you can probably see Bast has come back into my life again. To be fair, the whole ‘She was there the whole time’ schtick is probably correct this time. I don’t think She ever went away. But She’s been the background so long, I’m feeling a little unfaithful to the Gods I’ve built, or been trying to build relationships with, for the past almost decade.
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE that She’s back, and I’m determined to build a strong relationship with Her again.
I guess maybe the Virgo side of me has always told me “You need to stick with x pantheon”, which is why I jumped into the Norse pantheon (Though I have been getting to know what I call my Polynesian pantheon in the past few years too).
I began in the Kemetic/Egyptian pantheon, which is where Bast came in (one of my earliest memories was feeling sad for Her in a Museum because She had no one to worship Her anymore), but part of me has always felt that I needed to follow my ancestry to find my Gods, plus I was feeling a need for more of a connection with nature and the land which I wasn’t feeling from the Kemetic Gods – then Odin turned up, and did a bait and switch with Loki, and the rest is Polytheist history.
Truth be told I’m struggling with what I feel is a higgidy-piggidy mish-mash of Deities that I have in my life, when I feel like the bread and butter of Polytheist life is; you find a Pantheon and that’s yours, with a little bit of ‘I’m not African, how can I work with Their Gods’ (Though there is a story in Fiji that they had ancient Egyptians come and live there, but apparently they brought the Ark of the Covenant with them, so who knows).
I know there’s no right-way, or wrong-way to do Polytheism, I am the biggest advocate for that there is; if someone said to me ‘This is how you do x’, I would totally take it with a grain of salt knowing it won’t work for everyone. But I guess, for myself, I had an idea in my head of my personal practice, and it was quite different from where I am now. I thought I’d have my little Pantheon of expertise that I would have studied that butt out of, and I could share that with anyone interested in that Pantheon. Instead I feel like I have all these bits and pieces from here and there that I don’t know what to do with, and I don’t feel gives me enough to speak to anyone with any type of knowledge on any Pantheon.
I know this is coming off as ‘poor me’, but I’m interested to see where this ends up and venting into the void helps a little. I think this is why I’m currently in talks with Bast, She’s good at helping me with direction.
Conversations with the Gods 